Not your average Psychonaut!

The doctor said we need to talk more about this.

While listening to Dr. Julie Holland talk about the science of connection and how psychedelics can facilitate healing in relationships, she called out to all (even the soccer moms) to openly share our psychedelic experiences.

Backing up such a grand request by offering this:

“There is always trauma, and everybody carries it around in their bodies to some extent, and it needs to be unearthed and investigated for us to be healthier and happier. So everyone can avail themselves of MDMA and psilocybin assisted therapy” Dr. Julie Holland on the Plant Medicine Podcast with Dr. Lynn Marie Morski. 

Just for a minute, we will step into the way back machine.

In August, my IG account was shut down at 6k followers. It was the first time I had ever publicly mentioned my therapeutic use of MDMA. Even though MDMA has been part of my studies and work for almost 5 years, I was more reluctantly open about my healing and recovery from childhood trauma, narcissistic abuse, and the symptoms that manifested similar to CPTSD. 

Now that my life is calm and content, I reflect and integrate.  

Why now? 

Regarding unhealed trauma: “There’s always distrust. MDMA builds trust and [an abundance] of self-acceptance.” says Rick Doblin, drug activist and MAPS founder 

The reason I am sharing is two-fold, Dr. Holland was right. Let’s keep talking about healing with psychedelics. And as Rick said, trust, clarity, and an abundance of acceptance develop. 

I am dipping my toe in writing a memoir about healing cycles of abuse and awakening through consciousness and how MDMA is deepening my craft for a better, safer future.

This happens when we step through the veil of the organized beliefs we’ve constructed as our reality. The endpoints may look different for everyone; however, wonder and awe lie in deep gratitude and overwhelming love. 

Love connects the dots. Building and renewing relationships with my most authentic self have been a moving force in this deeply personal and professional journey.

MDMA offers fuel to the heartbeat of healing. I am undoing the patterns of past trauma in my need for survival; I can now share my stories.

MDMA has been an unexpectedly decisive turn in the road to recovery, personal discovery, and self-mastery.

The last conversation in my comment section on that MDMA post on IG was with a concerned mother to be fully transparent. She felt my influence as a “cool mom” on social media talking about drugs caused her 17-year-old daughter to use psychedelics. I engaged with the mother (as many followers did)to offer support and education about the power and purpose of psychedelics. These types of conversations are messy and painful. There are no absolutes. It would be so much easier if there were. But there aren’t. This mom was mad as hell, and I get it. Instagram agreed with the Mom.

MDMA has offered some of the best and most intense experiences that have caused a sudden revolutionary spurt to manage myself better. Leading, influencing, and meeting challenges head-on with more profound integrity and safety. 

It’s a huge responsibility and one I want you to know I take so seriously. 

What I know for sure is that folks like me have got work to do. A lot of work. Building my way out of an echo chamber, allowing adverse perspectives to make me wiser and more empathetic and open.

Ongoing, lifelong work- committing to helping people be safe exploring psychedelics. And be more clear on who and what the intended purpose is.

I’m not going to get it “right” all the time. But I AM going to find another way to carry on conversations about healing with the power of psychedelics.

But of course, change like this doesn’t come solely through psychedelics. It comes through decades of doing everything to get here and allowing for the admission of error. 

Would you like to talk about it?